On Letting Go
June 27th, 2008 by Ronalyn EdillorI have had my share of a nasty break-up. I could call it that because there were a lot of people involved and we didn’t even call it quits. It just happened one day that I didn’t answer his calls and messages. It seemed like I couldn’t take it any longer.
We were together for more than two years and I thought it was a serious relationship. Late in to it, I started noticing him spacing out like he’s in deep thought, or he would get mad at simple things. Little did I know that he was in a serious situation he didn’t know how to tell me. I confronted him about it and asked upfront if there’s another girl. He was speechless. I was afraid because I didn’t think I could stand hearing him confessing the truth. Well, there was indeed another girl and not only that, there’s a baby too. He got her pregnant and they had a baby boy just three months earlier. It all came back to me and then I knew the reason why he had to be away for a week or that he had not been seeing me because he was busy. I didn’t know what to say. It’s like the earth fell down on me.
As heartbreaking the news was, I knew I still loved him just the same. But then, there was no point continuing the relationship because we’re going to hurt the people we love in the process. The other girl would call me and beg me to leave the guy so that they move on and get married. The guy would tell me that it was a mistake and that he loved me. It was quite a dilemma. It was a hard decision to make but I knew I didn’t deserve to be cheated on and I couldn’t take away a father from his family. Even though it hurt, I let go. There was no closure. I just walked away one day and vowed never to look back.



