I’m a single mom and I’m VERY picky about guys I interact with. I don’t want just any man near my baby. In the past I wouldn’t date at all in fear of meeting a wierdo. Lately I’ve been more open to the possibility of love entering my life. The main way I’ve been doing this is by listening to love music. I stopped listening to music just for the pleasure of it for a long time. However, since my new open feeling toward love, I’ve actually clicked on my Musicmatch and created playlists that include love songs. Some songs remind me of those times in the past I’ve actually been very open to love and spent endless hours listening to music and daydreaming or thinking of someone in particular. It’s so crazy to listen to these songs now and connect with that feeling of love and wanting again. I like it.

I’ve also been more open to talking with guys when I go out. Before, I would brush someone off because they seemed “shady” and at least now I’ll chat with them or maybe have a dance. I still haven’t given out my number yet, or even had a date. However, I can see the progress I’m making and it really does feel positive.

Now I CAN imagine sharing my life and my bed with a guy, not just my child. That is new to me. It’s a scary, vunerable feeling but I’m being vunerable just posting this blog in the first place. I’m asking God and the Universe to guide me to what is right.

Esperanza Dodge wrote this on November 9th, 2008 and filed it under Single Life |