I was so envious to attend my friend’s wedding the other day. From the wedding, I saw the really happiness between two people. They were there for each other, and they go through the maturity of boyfriend – girlfriend relationship. I was there, watching the ceremony, and the their matrimony of that night. I, on other hand, was feeling so lonely, and suddenly, I wish that I want to get marry too.
For while, I was single, and never consider the matter of getting married with someone. I guess that I can’t let go of self – freedom even for now. But after seeing my friend’s wedding, I wish that I have my own family too. I want to start a family with someone. Someone significant will always be on my side, and she is the real one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I felt so lonely, and even helpless at some point. I want to cry, and I want to slap myself on the face. Why I still be single, and why I couldn’t find the love that I deserve. I just couldn’t figure out this question. Somehow, I just couldn’t get to the ending that I expected. I always end up at somewhere else. I just need some guidance, a shining light to guide me in a right direction.