single life

I have new neighbor when i was 16 years old.he is so nice, sweet, and caring.we become good friends.since then, he is always my companion where ever i go.
when we’re in college he told me that he love me i thought i loved him also.we become lovers for one month only to realized that i just want him as a friend..
after i broke up with him he started to avoid me. I am blaming my self for what happened.
I want our friendship back.