everything and everyone has their first time, for me the last couple of days gave me a chance to expereince the hurt and pain of being left off by someone important. i had a bad expereince at relationships before, and it took me years to recover and move on. when he came, i easily agreed but it was always hesistant to give effort for fear that i might be hurt again. soon it strained the relationship and after 6 months he left me for another. i guess there is really no love lost between us two but it still hurt to be left off for another.
so now im following a 3-month rule, before i start considering entering a relationship again. im still on my first week so desolation and misery are present, but i am strong and soon i will be able to move forward. when my 3 months is up, i will be ready and confident to consider new friendships or relationships. I guess some space is really important after breakups be it 3 months or more. so don’t rush, allow yourself to recover and heal. it is understandable and at some point, it is only you who can help yourself move forward and move on.